I have mentioned before that my husband and I have been on the brink of divorce, and that time of our marriage has served as a great catalyst for change in our relationship. In many ways, I am grateful that we have that experience to refer back to as a low point, and we can now identify many of the behaviors that got us into such a state in the first place. One of the chief reasons we found ourselves so far apart from each other is pride - not willing to accept that we each bore some personal responsibility in our relationship, and then allowing that pride to canker our love for each other and replace it with contempt and selfishness. Personally, the most difficult part of repairing our marriage was repenting of those selfish tendencies and allowing my husband to be my partner. I had built up walls of independence, and his opinions and feelings and input meant very little to me - I could do everything on my own, and I was on a mission to prove it! He was dealing with similar issues with different symptoms.
We still have a long way to go, as we are still making effort every day to accept each other's influence in our marriage. Recently, while I was at work, my husband chose to issue a punishment to our kids that I disagreed with. Admittedly, I approached him in anger when I got home - how could he do something like that without talking to me first? I always check with him regarding discipline, especially when I know I'm really angry and want my kids to SUFFER! Then he talks me down and we can find a more appropriate solution. But no - he just went right ahead and.....you get the idea. Rather than the expected defensive retort, he simply sat there for a moment and said, "you're right." We were then able to come up with a more equitable solution to the problem together. It wasn't that he was right, or I was right - it was about working together and respecting each other and our different views. Many times these situations come up, and we learn over and over again to listen to, love, and respect each other. As we do this, our wills are reconciled with each other and there is peace in our marriage and in our home.